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hmm   
10:53pm 27/02/2005
 
mood: thoughtful
music: howie
so lately i've been thinking a whole lot, even though it doesn't seem like it. when i think, i usually kind of go into seclusion. but this time im out with people, expressing what i think. its kind of relieving when people actually pay attention. but whatever. this weekend was alot of fun. so far 4 days off maybe more. i hung out with alex alot, hes a great kid. even though he can be a little stubborn, i love him anyway. um ice world is not as cool as mt. pleasant.... towson diner sells jello... and i found out what the greatest thing could be.. love. thats all life is really about i see. its rather exciting but devastating at the same time.. but its all what life is.		  
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hmmmm   
02:25pm 17/01/2005
 
mood: content
music: get up kids
its really amazing how when you only sleep 6 hours in 3 days, it feels like a whole week went by. it makes me wonder what would it be like to slep 10 hours in a week. but none the less, it was fun. shows, emotions, drugs, andy, cutting people, dentists, ssx, alcohol, prison, kids TV shows, and best of all, no work! what could be better except finding myself yoodling in the mountains with frank sinatra. hes not a yoodler but im sure he could be. *sigh* its been way too long.. look out world, I'm back.		  
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12:00pm 23/07/2004
 
mood: sick
music: jurasic park theme song
bah i am ready to come home. duck is getting old and there isnt much left to do. yesterday i got up early and saw the sunrise again, which was ok. later i woke up again and did some stuff. i went to the beach with my sister and had one of the best conversations in the world. we talked about everything. it was nice. we left after a bunch of people camped out right in front of us....stupid yuppies... later i went with my dad to the brew thru and wal mart. and thats about it. this morning i woke up at 430 ish and just decided to go to the beach again. my dad was up so he came too. we saw some dolphins and such before it started pouring rain. and its still raining. oh well, at least its my last day. haha my neice told me she loved me, probably cause i gave her pizza. bah today is a long day and i feel like im gonna throw up. see you at home		  
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ducks   
12:58pm 22/07/2004
 
mood: hungry
music: My Chemical Romance
i am really beginning to get upset with this place. all this time i've been here and i have not seen a single a duck. but oh well. my goal today is to find a duck. its only sane that one should be in this town. yesterday i really did nothing. i made breakfast and floated. i talked to feef and meg alittle. im happy to announce that i am no longer a lobster. *cheers* this morning i got up at like 430 to go down to the beach. i did so but there were to many clouds to actually see the sunrise from the horizon. but i saw a school of dolphins swim by which was pretty cool. yep only 2 more days till im back in bmore. i dont know whether to be excited or saddened. well whatever, im gonna go make a pizza for lunch. if anyone cares to join me they are welcome :P		  
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la   
12:24pm 21/07/2004
 
mood: lobster
music: beastie boys
hmm this vacation thing is something to get used to. i slept a hot 16 hours yesterday. woooooooweeee. sun burns hurt way to much. especially when it is everywhere. ugh it hurts to anything and nothing. but whatever. im not soo much a lobster as i was and it hurts less today. not much is happening lately, theres a wine tasting thing later but that whole age thing kicked me out. woo the ice cream man just came by! i think i scared people running outside after the truck with arms in the air. people are afriad of parkvillians i suppose. oh well. its hot, im hot and i might go swimming. sorry to all who calls and doesnt get an answer. keep trying tho cause ill eventually pick up ;)

p.s i love my sister dearly and she is the best in the entire world.		  
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la   
12:20pm 21/07/2004
 
mood: lobster
music: beastie boys
hmm this vacation thing is something to get used to. i slept a hot 16 hours yesterday. woooooooweeee. sun burns hurt way to much. especially when it is everywhere. ugh it hurts to anything and nothing. but whatever. im not soo much a lobster as i was and it hurts less today. not much is happening lately, theres a wine tasting thing later but that whole age thing kicked me out. woo the ice cream man just came by! i think i scared people running outside after the truck with arms in the air. people are afriad of parkvillians i suppose. oh well. its hot, im hot and i might go swimming. sorry to all who calls and doesnt get an answer. keep trying tho cause ill eventually pick up ;)		  
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take 2   
12:08am 20/07/2004
 
mood: thankful
ok so tonight i decided i needed to go for walks. i needed time to think and such. it was about 1030 and a storm had already passed. i sat on the beach for a while, watching the lightning dance across the sky. about this time i realized that i wanted someone to share this moment with, so i called a friend. someone i really care about. many stars were able to peek through the breaks of clouds as i began talking to her. it was nice just to hear her voice, even tho it was distorted by the phone signal. as i talked i continued to watch the waves crash and the storm blow away. it was great, until my phone died. so i gave it a minute and let it gather itself and called back. but it soon died again. after that it crapped out for good. so i sat and admired the moment by myself and began walking back. thinking again i had this whole new image of life. just something random hit me. i began to realize complications cause so many problems and distress, like the phone and me being so far away. i thought with solutions things could run smoother, like a full battery or a full tank of gas in a car cruising down a highway. i thought then that so much can be fixed so easily. and i somehow know how to fix things. i know that there are many complications with people as there were in the past, but they are easily fixed to make life happier. tonight was glorious, it should me how far away people can be with problems. but once you find solutions to them, they can be very close. so id like to end by apologizing for my dead battery and if that girl is reading this, to please call me back. doesnt matter the time. i just love to have her near.		  
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weeeeee   
04:57pm 19/07/2004
 
mood: sore
music: TBS
wow it rains a lot in this place. im having a lot of fun here but im getting a little agrivated with my parents. but oh well. they yell at me i take the .5 mile walk to the beach and sleep. yesterday it poured for like 2 hours. there was flooding on the streets. it was kinda fun driving through the puddles even when the car stalled. we went to some italian ice place which wasnt nearly as good as ritas. i bought a cool hoddie, a 6 legged octupus (otto) and this other thing for future stuff... loads of fun. after getting lost and driving in circles we finally came home and i slowly nodded off. this morning i was woke up by a buddy/olivia attack. it hurt but i got over it. we went down to the beach where i passed out again. i woke up stiff and a lobster. im so burnt its unbelievable. it hurts to move. but eh, salt water made it feel good. i found this crab on the beach too, his name is kevin. im trying my best to get a picture of him but its tough. my brother also caught 2 frogs in the pool while he was cleaning it. we named them flip and flop after the honorary flip-flop. (flip-flop was a frog my sister and i kept. he occasionally jumped out of his bowl and across the street, in the drain, and in the AC unit. and lived) so thats about it. it looks like its gonna rain again which sucks but oh well. its fun here, but i have a feeling it wont last for long :/

p.s im gonna try and give you guys another good image like yesterday morning.		  
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la   
06:02pm 18/07/2004
 
mood: content
music: tiger lily -- mbox romance
ok... stop and imagine this:
its very early in the morning, your walking up a sand dune with your CD player. there is a nice breeze hitting your face with the smell of salt water. you reach the top of the dune and you look out at the ocean. there are few clouds lingering from the storm which passed. you look out ahead of you and see a distant purple and orange light emerging from the horizon. you sit down in the moist, soft sand and play the music from your CD player. The song(Cavanaugh Park) and the roar of the ocean is all you hear. as the song continues, the light becomes stronger and more brilliant. soon the song ends and changes into Konstantine. very pretty song for a very pretty morning. as that song went on the sun came up and peeked behind some clouds... life is perfect

yea that was my morning:) those 2 songs are even better for me now! this house is the best. i have my own bedroom and floor. the entire basement belongs to steve. mwa ha ha. i have a big screen TV and a little frige for sodas. my room has 4 beds(2 bunk beds) so i take full advantage of it. theres a computer on the next floor, many Tvs and stuff. and a hot tub. my place for napping. duck isnt as bad as i thought. so i will update another time. when im not sleeping ;)		  
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12:43am 17/07/2004
 
mood: drained
music: dynamite hack --- boys in the hood
fa la la..... yeah im not getting good at this frequent update thing and i apologize. not much has been happening lately... same old crap. im getting ready to go duck NC. it should be fun, but will become boring. its gonna be a lot of me time. oh well, i plan to write some songs while sittin on the beach. anyway tonight was fun. i was out with dwayne and meg. its fun to watch them since they are cousins. pretty crazy too. we played pool, went to mcd's and back to pool. there were 5 gay guys carrying a nice conversation about what ever they wanted. it was pretty interesting. most of it we missed because we were trying to control our laughter. thats about as good as seeing 2 homeless guys duke it out the other night. well im up and out to duck
take care dears		  
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snoop doggy dog   
04:08pm 07/07/2004
 
mood: content
music: snoop dog baby -- reel big fish
feef sucks. she gets to see him with LP. mmmmmm thats not cool at all. anyway this is the first time ive been here in 54323 days and 40 hours. ill tell you, not much has changed. im doin the same random crap ive been doin for all my life. its just now things are getting more interesting. reasons unknown to you. mwa ha ha. yeah im really sorry for the lost time, but im back and better then ever. i guess thats right i dont know. see you on the flip side.
feef is mayor and gets life tiles for it.		  
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12:20am 09/05/2004
 
mood: content
music: waste -- smashmouth
hello there laddies. fine saturday it was. i got up by my unhappy father and started to do yard work. i went out to poor boys later to get my mom a bunch of flowers($70 worth :( ) and i saw kelly there. i talked for a little but she was kinda busy. so later i learned "around the world" by the chili peppers for bass. flea is seriously a prophet. i love him. anyway i went to joels cook-out and messed around and played with his cousins and such. later on me and spencer chased samantha's run-away dog. ran a half mile and found him sittin in a car with some people. very thankful of good citizens. after that i got pissed a spencer like whoa-hey and he knows why. went home and talked to amy for a good while. she was making cupcakes....as i was cleaning the bathroom. yeah. so later she called and said she couldnt go out with me so i said whatever and listen to pink floyd. i went found spencer and did random stuff all night. found misha and called him a phony. found megan and had good times. thats it. i love weekends. happy moms day.		  
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12:30am 08/05/2004
 
mood: relaxed
music: bleeder -- alkaline trio
hmm this week hasnt been all to bad. monday was ok, i didnt have to work:) tuesday was also fun i just geeked out and ran around. wednesday was a hell of alot of fun. after the AP test..bah.. me katie, bev, kelly, and hyeon went to fridays. it was good fun and had a fairly decent meal. after that i went home and met danielle and kayla. pretty cool ladies. later on that night i stopped up at ritas and saw the Let It Die dance team do their thing, steve randomly comes to mcdonalds, and amy wilson...tehe. thursday kinda blew. kate met me after school and we walked over to work together. it was fun, just too bad shes movin to deleware:( so i worked all damn night. friday was ok, work was alrite. i went home with zach and his metal leg and set up a surprise party for joel. we were so ghetto on this. i got joel an action figure named jacob. definently a gay one. after we showered joel with confetti, army men, spiders, and silly jiz i stopped home. me and samantha just chatted for a while about stuff and it was fun. i went back out took zach home and walked around with spencer. very nice night, mhmmm		  
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10:39pm 02/05/2004
  wow do i love great weekends! it all started on thursday really. after school me and spencer went to get our rocket summer and SoCo tiks!! on the way we saw a fire truck pop over the median and just wow. completly random. he wasnt taken shit from no one. so we go to the recher and walked around. saw a dodge viper GTS...blue with white racing stripes. made me creme my pants. saw some guy from a static lullaby. we came home and just hung around. that night i had to work which kinda blew but i got to work with kaiti and she is really awesome. somehow my manager talked about prom and kaiti said she would go with me. and i asked her to do so and she accepted. thats thursday...friday wasnt as exciting, i had to stay after school until like 7 to decorate for the prom. i had fun with jason and nate and such. we went to mcdonalds and ritas and i talked to kait. we decided to meet at school later and we did. we skated around and down to double rock. and i bowed her in the face. i dont think ive ever felt so terrible before. but she was fine and i was really sorry and all that crap. but it went to a good cause.... anyway like everyone and their fuckin sister kept calling me. and spencer had a hit and run. he was pissed as hell. we chilled at his house till like 1 and then took everyone home. i slept there and saturday was nothing. i ran around for awhile and went to prom. i actually had alot of fun. i love just being out with all myfriends, especially when we just have as much fun as possible. after prom we did shit and i went home. today kinda blew, but all sundays do, i had work alll day. but i worked with kait, cassie and bill so it was fun. now im just pooped. lack of sleep everywhere and all. bah im out  
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10:03pm 26/04/2004
 
mood: excited
music: bleeder -- alkaline trio
and i think to myself, what a wonderful world.... yeaya. not toom much has happened lately, sunday i reached a new low for myself, i sat on the sidewalk hitting rocks with hammers, and then watched people do the same... i couldnt believe it. later i watched a chicken in a rotisery for like 20 min. it sounded like a whale. anyway i went home and then to work and had fun. today was reptty boring, crappy weather and all. im in a great mood tho. my band will hopefully come out with some new songs, we have so many ideas. hopefully one day we will just sit and write songs. summer will be here soon too which means many fun days of absolute bull shit. and now with the way things are, i dont see it getting much better:)
stev		  
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11:41pm 24/04/2004
 
mood: peaceful
music: hoobastank--- the reason
trala today was fun...i woke up by my dad bombing me. it hurt. i found out that i had a dentist appointment today which saddened me... i went to the post office for 30 minutes and then finally to the dentist, but it was FUN. turns out my dentist plays guitar. he said he really doesnt have time to play anymore. he also told me he had a standard gibson SG... holy geez i love that guitar. even though im not into electrics as much, that guitar is a turn on. he said i could borrow it sometime too. i shit my pants and told him i loved him. a dentist. bwa. after that me and mom drove round and came home to find my sis and JC. we sat and chatted. later i went on a rescue mission, spencer was MIA. found him finally and we met up with feef and jordan at the mall. we walked around and yea. it was fun. i made 2 dollars by taking a survey. i had a lot of fun just being out there with them and i wish i could do it more... later we found hyeon and amy too. good times. i came home and ate and went down the street and did random shit all night. nothing else really happened. i just want school to end, im done and it knows im done. bastards. peace im irie		  
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12:47am 24/04/2004
 
mood: weird
music: paul revere----beastie boys
hello there... not all too much has happened lately. ive been pissed off at people. especially myself. today was sarah dillons birthday however and i do wish her happiness. next year sweetheart...boobs everywhere. other than that nothing. i finally saw the SICK play. it was really good, made me think a lot about my friends and past relatives:( now i just feel like i need to do something fun with myself. ive been so bored and helpless, and theres no one left to help me. its pathetic really. for so long i relyed on just myself, being there for me. but lately ive been openning up to others, and now they arent helping anymore. but oh well, i did it before i can do it again so BAH. i am very excited for warm weather which means swimming and random projects. i cant wait		  
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12:35am 18/04/2004
 
mood: grateful
music: story of the year-- anthem of our dying day
hello there. hmm nothing much very fun has happened all week. shcool blows. work was really boring too. it was too cold and rainny for anything. um.... i ordered a 300 watt amplifier...rocket summer with soco at recher...and yeah... friday was fun. i skipped shcool to check out towson univer. it was ok. it didnt really appeal to me to much. after that i went to school to meet up with people and came home. later i went to jaeme's bday party. we played frisbee and baseball. there were a lot of people there and it was fun. i went home took a shower and went in search of joel. i found him at his girlfriend's house. so i talked a little then had to comfort samantha. and i did that well... uh.. after i left greg and kim found me and we met up with jordan and feef. we sat a friendlys and then headed to gregs. i really like his apartment. it was really comfy. we watched resevoiur (sp?) boys. pretty awesome. jordan and feef left and soon after kim took me home. i couldnt sleep well on account of my head throbbing. sat. mornign i went to honor ceremony. this guy has been a scout master for 45 years and they gave awards. he worked with all blind people. i think most people dont give them enough credit. just by having lunch with them i felt completly different. this man name charlie was really funny. but anyway after that i sat and stuff and went to the show. it turned out pretty well...i almost died by choking...and yeah. i was actually happy with my performance....even though i messed up here and there. everyone seemed to like rocket summer. that song was just weird for me. its really a song about how i feel about stuff....and i didnt know if i still felt it. but after that song it came back. i spraked a tear... im so emo....its bad. after the show we went to 711 and such and came home. i feel empty now tho.. i have nothing to really look forward to anymore....but maybe something will happen to make my life more exciting and make me a happier fellow.

good night		  
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12:06am 12/04/2004
 
mood: content
music: The Rocket Summer -- What We Hate, We Make
hmm didly dum im fearing school. i have this massive huge prject to do. and its just not happening. so i dont care too much. ugh my week has been alrite. a lot of random stuff going on. this weekend was great though. friday zach came over!! and i love that kid. he still has his 5 screws but oh well. me and spencer went to honeygoland and met a bunch of people. hum... that night i stayed at joels and slept like 3 hours. we played halo for a tad and i was gone. i got up and watched a fishing show. i went to my gmoms and came home to find no one. i broke into spencer's house and waited for him to come home. orange county is a good movie. and then spencer, jordan, and jaeme hung out. chris randomly came. we drove around and found a duck. just chilling there. it was GOD. we came back to spencers and i went home. easter was good. i played with my niece a whole lot. she gave me a poopy diaper. i went over jordans and hung out with feef for a little. feef went home early so me and jor sat and talked in our sex talk tent. we were emo(mostly me) and then i came home. and yea, school sucks. Happy Easter to all! goodnight		  
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07:29pm 04/04/2004
 
mood: rejected
music: at your funeral -- saves the day
hello hmm this weekend has been pretty fun... friday i watched school of rock and monty python with jordan and feef. well monty python kinda thru me to sleep... saturday i went to salisbury university, it was really nice and i liked it a lot...ugh... we went to the show that night (me and spencer and jaeme) had as much fun as possible. beside the random seizure and heart break it was fun. afterwards we went to a park which we couldnt find at first but eventually found. ugh today blows a lot, im in a horrible mood, i got up early not feeling good, worked not feeling good, and now im stuck at home. i tried to go out to joels, on the way i fell and got a piece of my hand ripped off on the palm. hurts alot. joel wasnt home, hand bleeding i came home to sit her where i am. ( that last sentence took me like 10 minutes to right) i really wish i had something to do, or talk to. i also want to talk to feef, i feel like im lying about something. but now i say fuck it. just fuck life. im tired of it. i want something to happen that could change everything for the better. not as much for me but more for everyone else. damn, im gonna go walk my dog. peace		  
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